Life is a race!

Leadership

2010-04-27T01:55:00.002+08:00

Leaders draw people to them.

But beyond that, they draw people closer to GOD!

Greater leaders ensure that their followers are all-rounders.

But they got to take the first two steps: Drawing people to them, and drawing them to GOD!

packed!

2010-04-07T03:42:00.003+08:00

SOT Orientation
Last day @ SBS Transit.
SOT daily.
N246.
Easter Celebrations.
Teared when Jesus was walking.
Heart thumped when he was nailed.
19 friends for easter!
Praise God.
SOT
IC Zone Overnight Prayer Meeting
SOT
N246 Eggy-Gaga Friday on 9 Apr.

So packed. Updates soon. Just soon. :)

SOT 2010

2010-03-08T01:44:00.002+08:00

SOT 2010!
Decided, signed up. Registration approved.
Orientation starts in 8 days time.
Really don't know what to expect.

I must say, I'm a little shy!
I need to overcome this barrier of fear in adapting to another phase of my life.

But still, a big thanks to the zone leaders.
For sharing their stories and pouring their encouragements on the new embarkment.

I need to start planning for my finances.
I need a part time job.
BIG TIME!

God WILL provide!
I stand by that promise no matter what.

Whatever - Oasis

2010-02-20T12:26:00.002+08:00

New Playlist!

It's a mixture of some oldies and some of my favourites. Here's one of them!

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WHATEVER
by Oasis

I'm free to be whatever I
Whatever I choose
And I'll sing the blues if I want
I'm free to say whatever I
Whatever I like
If it's wrong or right it's alright

Always seems to me
You only see what people want you to see
How long's it gonna be
Before we get on the bus
And cause no fuss
Get a grip on yourself
It don't cost much

Free to be whatever you
Whatever you say
If it comes my way it's alright
You're free to be wherever you
Wherever you please
You can shoot the breeze if you want

It always seems to me
You only see what people want you to see
How long's it gonna be
Before we get on the bus
And cause no fuss
Get a grip on yourself
It don't cost much

I'm free to be whatever I
Whatever I choose
And I'll sing the blues if I want

Here in my mind
You know you might find
Something that you
You thought you once knew
But now it's all gone
And you know it's no fun
Yeah I know it's no fun
Oh I know it's no fun

I'm free to be whatever I
Whatever I choose
And I'll sing the blues if I want
I'm free to be whatever I
Whatever I choose
And I'll sing the blues if I want

Whatever you do
Whatever you say
Yeah I know it's alright
Whatever you do
Whatever you say
Yeah I know it's alright.

hate that feeling

2010-02-18T00:48:00.002+08:00

Something's not right.
I'm starting to feel that everything is a facade.
Everything seems so fake.
I'm starting to dislike families.
I don't trust in families anymore.
Or maybe I'm just envious.

I'm numbed.
Very numbed.
I wanna push myself.
But there's a stone stuck somewhere.
And it just won't give way!

I hate it. I just don't like it.
I've made my stand clear.

I hate it when you online, your conversations centered around that topic.
I have to talk to you only because I have to - because it's only respectful to do so.
Every time your conversation pops up, it's about me going over.
Stop telling me how much you want me over and not leaving me here.
I'm happy here! And I know I won't be there!

Don't impose your expectations on me.
Living to your expectations will only make me regret not doing what I want to do!
But then again, is it all worth living for?

angbaos 2010

2010-02-16T17:10:00.003+08:00

coolness!

this year's angbao was higher than last year.
received a total of almost $700 worth of angbaos.
dad gave the most - birthday angbao.
thank God for the blessings!

beyond the angbaos, this year's CNY seems a little gloomy.
very very weird without my bro.

Happy New Year everyone!

99-Minesweeper

2010-02-15T10:38:00.001+08:00

CONQUERED!!

CNY 2010

2010-02-14T03:21:00.004+08:00

Happy New Year!

This year is the first year I am celebrating CNY alone. Last year was without my mum, but my brother was still in Singapore.

It's weird, but I kinda "enjoy" being alone.
Or maybe it's because I don't want to be bothered.

Haha, whatever!

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I don't like to be pushed.
Being forced to do something that I clearly know it's totally not what my life is supposed to be.

Don't force me!
I've made my point clear.
How I wish I can ask you to stop it. But I can't. Simply because I gotta give you the due respect.
URGH

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When a choice is made, options are no longer options.

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I feel kinda messed up.
Or rather, I think I AM a little messed up.
The depression is setting in again.
Those negativity, those struggles - it's returning.
I hate it when I gotta face this myself.
I don't like that feeling.

That feeling that I'm just not the "Plan A".
That feeling that I'm only needed when the other party needs something.

I know I'm supposed to be positive.
But why am I so negative?

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Certainly hope this isn't quarter-life crisis.
Ha!

job openings

2010-01-24T13:03:00.002+08:00

totally no time to blog!
work, work, work, work - i need another holiday!
but wait, my last holiday was only 2 months ago.
it felt like it's one year!!

i've got offers for other jobs lately.
seriously speaking, my current job doesn't pay me good.
i'm heavily underpaid.
still, thank God for the increment.
it's not much, but it's still an increment.

a company offered me a position to do marketing.
it's a well-known company, and the bonuses are good.
this company looks good on the outside.
but like all big companies, there's bound to be politics.
should i go for it?

meanwhile, i checked out MOE website.
there's opening for the AEP (allied educators' programme).
it's like an Assistant-Teacher.
teaching has always been what i wanted to do.
but is this the time to go for it?
besides, NIE application for the degree programme is opening soon. am i prepared for it?
i've always loved teaching!
students were always my motivation to inspire.

there's three doors open now.
where should i head to?
God, lead the way!

2010

2010-01-18T02:28:00.003+08:00

I can't believe it!
First half of January 2010 has just passed.
And I've yet to think what's ahead this year.
I need to find time to think through my goals.

After all the praying, fasting and sowing,
Pastor announced yesterday on our finally-long-awaited land is coming through!
Praise the Lord!!
Being human, my jaw dropped when I saw the amount that we needa raise.
But knowing God, knowing His character, having known Him and experienced His goodness before, it's undeniable that GOD IS GOOD!
If this is His will, it shall be done no matter what!
There's NOTHING!
NOTHING AT ALL that's gonna stop God from moving.

The future building funds are not gonna be as hard as the last few ones.
It was blind faith - not knowing if it's gonna happen!
Yet we gave, believing the invisible.
Now that we've gotten the land, faith increases, for it's something that we finally can see ahead!

Just 2 weeks ago, I felt the Lord was asking me to make a resolution of saving up $200 a month in Year 2010.
Little did I know that He was preparing me for Building Fund!

I wanna build God a glorious House!
It's where His glory dwells, where miracles happen.
Tongues are gonna start wagging.
People are gonna start scrutinising.
But if God is for us, who can be against us?

Let's ARISE and BUILD!
Time to get our butts moving.
Time to RISE UP, take our grounds and start working!
Let the sowing begin once again.
Fasten your seat belts, get ready for a journey of our lives.
Let's GO!

New Playlist

2009-12-29T02:28:00.006+08:00

New Playlist for the upcoming new year!
Supposedly inspirational, but I've decided to put in a little mix.
The hit song: Adam Lambert - No boundaries! The others are just bonus.

ENJOY!

Playlist:
1. Adam Lambert - No Boundaries
2. Natasha Bedingfield - Unwritten
3. Freiheit - Keeping the Dream Alive
4. Mariah Carey - Hero
5. Mariah Carey - Through the Rain
6. OneRepublic - Stop & Stare
7. The Fray - Never Say Never
8. Bette Midler - Wind Beneath My Wings
9. Sun - 謝謝有你們
10. Vanessa Williams - Remember Me This Way
11. The Cranberries - Dreams
12. Abba - Thank You For The Music

For now, here's one of my favourites:
KEEPING THE DREAM ALIVE - FREIHEIT

Tonight the rain is falling
Full of memories of people and places
And while the past is calling
In my fantasy I remember their faces

The hopes we had were much too high
Way out of reach but we have to try
The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive

I hear myself recalling
Things you said to me
The night it all started
And still the rain is falling
Makes me feel the way
I felt when we parted

The hopes we had were much too high
Way out of reach but we have to try
No need to hide no need to run
'Cause all the answers come one by one
The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive

I need you
I love you

The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive

The hopes we had were much too high
Way out of reach but we have to try
No need to hide no need to run
'Cause all the answers come one by one

The hopes we had were much too high
Way out of reach but we have to try
No need to hide no need to run
'Cause all the answers come one by one

The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive

The game will never be over
Because we're keeping the dream alive

The game will never be over

Christmas is coming!

2009-12-17T14:17:00.003+08:00

IT'S THE CHRISTMAS SEASON!!
Once again, it's the season of giving.

There's just something different in the atmosphere.
Despite the busyness at work,
at the sound of the Christmas songs,
I get excited and recharged all over again!

Throughout the year, Christmas is always the season
that I'm most looking forward to!
It's always the time to take stock of our lives.
To think through how much we've grown and learnt,
the events that made us laugh and cry,
and most importantly, to take stock on the
friendships that we have built in the past year!

Year 2009 has been the year where I've seen
myself grown the most!

Made many new friends - some really good ones.
Some old friendships were strengthened.
Some didn't and some are still left hanging.

EXTREME X'MAS PARTY IS ON TONIGHT!
I'm excited excited EXCITED!

A whole long list of events coming up!

17 Dec - Extreme X'mas Party
19 Dec - Christmas Candlelight Service
20 Dec - Thanksgiving Service
24/25 Dec - A Christmas Story
26 Dec - Zone Leaders Gift Exchange
27 Dec - WORK RELATED EVENT
27 Dec - Tangy's Birthday Party!
31 Dec - CG Appreciation Night
01 Jan - Zone Overnight Prayer Mtg Cum Appreciation!

I'm packed packed packed to the max.

And 31 Dec will also be the last night that
N246 and W193 will be having CGM together.

I'm definitely excited, but sad at the same time.
Both CGs are really close with one another.

Seeing some of N246 going over to W193
will definitely be a challenge.

But every ending is a new beginning!
And the ending is glorious than the beginning.
So the ending and beginning WILL BE GLORIOUS!

Since it's the christmas season, I've updated my song list:
1. Avalon - We are the reason
2. Mariah Carey - All I want for Christmas is You
3. Hillsong - O Rejoice
4. Michael Buble - Home
5. Amy Grant - Grown Up Christmas List
6. Amy Grant - Winterland
7. Amy Grant - Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas
8. Hillsong - Angels we have heard on high/Gloria

ENJOY!

tawning @ isaac's

2009-11-28T02:57:00.002+08:00

tawning @ a Danielle & Isaac's house tonight.
was quite an impromptu though.
was supposed to be just dinner and mahjong.
and then it ended up with very late night mahjong and Wii.

i must say, I'm really blessed.
thank God for Aunt Angie and family.
they have always stood by us during difficult times
and will never fail to take care of ben and i
during days when we're left alone in singapore, fendless.

and of course, our childhood friends - danielle and isaac.
they're really good friends to keep.
danielle - always so down to earth but full of crazy ideas.
and isaac - always so realistic and honest.
they're like ben's and my extended siblings.
we used to holiday together since 1997 on a yearly basis.
due to our busy schedules, we hardly do so since 2006.

i'm really really thankful for them.
BIG TIME!

This weekend's theme will be:
WORK HARD, PLAY HARD!!

I'm gonna really play hard this weekend before working hard again next week. Heee.

lately..

2009-11-23T02:05:00.002+08:00

lately, while travelling on the public transport
i've been having flashes of the future.
No, this is not Flash Forward.
But they are flashes of what the future holds.
When I think I about them,
I can't help to be excited and be full of faith about it.
it feels like..
an EXPLOSION in the spirit.

it's raining. heavily!
The latter rain is here.
are you ready for it?

there's so much things to be done.
growth beyond maintenance.
i can only give that much.
i can only do that much.
but it's only when i do and give that much, my best
that's when God comes into the picture.

"are you willing?"
"Yes I am!"
"then believe that I can do anything, son!"
"Yes I'm willing."

gaga

2009-11-22T02:23:00.002+08:00

gaga over GaGa!!

Asher Book - Try

2009-11-19T00:40:00.006+08:00

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe I'm not ready

But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me

Life after Bangkok

2009-11-16T23:12:00.003+08:00

Nov 10 - Nov 14.
Bangkok Trip!
How I wish it would be longer.
Like really really longer.
I felt like my holiday is so shortchanged.
Should have extended a few more days.
SHOULD HAVE EXTENDED!
SHOULD HAVE EXTENDED!
SHOULD HAVE EXTENDED!
SHOULD HAVE EXTENDED!
SHOULD HAVE EXTENDED!
SHOULD HAVE EXTENDED!
SHOULD HAVE EXTENDED!
ARRRRGGHHHH

No, I'm not being lazy.
I just need more time to rest.
I've been working too hard since Army days.
The day after I ORD, I started work with SBS.
Where is the justice?

Bangkok really set me thinking.
ALOT of thinking.
About life, about people, about riches and glory.

Life can be so unfair at times.

There are people who can spend money without any limit
where money feels like clouds.
but you, always having to scrimp and save every cent possible
and there are those who are worse off.
Where's the fairness here?

There are people who just look better than everyone else
and attracts all the attention to him/her
only to find yourself more inferior because of all the attention
but you, always having the need impress others that you're good
but you don't. where is the fairness here?

Pastor Kong's message once again set me thinking.
Besides the "Tall Poppy Syndrome",
Inferiority is the result of it and has it's poisonous effect.
When I hear Ps Kong sharing about how he fight in his life
to press on to that high calling of God to be different
I get inspired.
He's my role-model. BIG TIME.
When I see his life, I see mine and I will always reflect.

You don't need looks to get attention.
You don't need to impress to get love.
You don't need riches to satisfy your material needs.

It's okay to have these natural things:
Riches, looks, glory, attention.

But it's NOT OKAY to be dependent on these things to get success.

Life, wow. It gets even better.
It always does.
Just as when you thought it's the worst
You soar!

Soar today! You don't need too much natural talent to be who you are.
Be who God wants you to be!

change

2009-10-31T01:42:00.000+08:00

Many people live their life to see the changes from generation to generation. But a minor few live their life to shake the world and make history. I don't want to live my life to see people make changes. I want to be THAT change!

Busy, Holiday, WEDDING!

2009-09-22T01:29:00.004+08:00

Work.
Busy.
Thinking of holiday.
How???

Am planning.
For 2 holidays
Bangkok, Beijing
Hopefully
it comes to pass.
If it doesn't
So be it

Money,
Time,
Ministry,
Friends,
Air Tickets,
Work!

But
I
want
a
HOLIDAY!!!!

Like NOW!

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And
Ling Keong, Peggy's Wedding
AMAZING!
Always good
to see your brother
settling down.
Am so proud of LK and Peggy.
They're the silent friends.
Who stood by me.
Though not exactly physically.
Always supportive,
always encouraging.
CONGRATULATIONS!

seeya in 5 months!

2009-09-12T02:04:00.001+08:00

There goes another brother, flying off to China.

WAIT! I gotta say this: The "Northern Polar Bears" wasn't intended!! But nonetheless, I am glad it worked it out.

Take care there brother! I believe you'll come back stronger and BIGGER on the inside!

You're gonna be greatly missed.
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A brand new job scope, a brand new week, with PILES OF WORK and requests awaiting my evaluation.

Don't think I can wait till June to have a holiday.

NPB, we on for it? :D

YAHWEH

2009-09-08T00:34:00.000+08:00

YAHWEH
By Hillsong, From album Faith + Hope + Love

Our God He lives forever
He reigns in power and love
Let earth bow down before Him
For He is exalted

We look to Yahweh, Yahweh
Forever Yahweh, Yahweh
We look to Yahweh, Yahweh
Our hope is Yahweh, Yahweh

Our hope is God Almighty
His love is greater than all
Lift high the God of Heaven
And give all the honour

And He shall reign, forever
He shall reign, forever
He shall reign, forever and ever
Our God

N246, N246, N246!!

2009-09-04T01:05:00.003+08:00

Everything seems to be finally falling into place!

N246 is experiencing some breakthroughs lately, with today's CG hit a record of 12!!

And and, last weekend, we hit 16 last weekend (would have been even awesome if Van could join us).

I mean, we never or seldom have more than 10. It's usually 8 or 9, because N246 has 5 NS guys.

It's more than the numbers that matter. It's the STRENGTH and the QUALITY behind the numbers that determine how far a group will go.

Plus, the atmosphere for today's CG was really different. Every member came with a heart of expectancy for God to move.

When you learn to make room for God to move, He will move!

This shouldn't be something revelational. God moves only when we move. It should always be a part of us - everywhere we go!

When we move, God moves! When we don't, He doesn't. Simple yet not so comprehensive.

And I love the fellowship today! LOUD and active!

The vision for N246 in August was Unity.

September - The month of relationships for N246!

Let's keep the momentum going!!

Water Baptism

2009-08-30T01:19:00.000+08:00

29 August 2009

Marks the day of my spiritual birthday.

It's a brand new journey, a brand new walk with God.

Immediately, I'm feeling God's presence all over me over the last two days.

ANOINTING ANOINTING ANOINTING!

A leader can never lead without God's anointing.

God, I'm willing to pay the price for it! What's this price compares to the price that you paid for us?

Baptism

2009-08-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

Water Baptism tomorrow!

Woooohooooo!

It's gonna be a whole new encounter after tomorrow.

I can't wait man.

Come support me if you can!

Your presence and support means alot to me.

:D

Aug 2008

2009-08-26T22:39:00.003+08:00

I can't help it.

Gotta post this video somehow.

I still remember that last year, I had to rush back to camp on the SOT Graduation Day, due to AHM. And I knew it!! I missed out on so many many things!

Gonna post this video as a remembrance.

Pastor, I don't think you'll be reading this, but thank you for being our hero!

PS: Sorry Jiayi. Really can't helped it. :DD

We always hope that life is like a bed of roses. But very often, we forget that roses have thorns that prick. It's never easy too to have life like a bed of pricking thorns.

如果你聽見我的歌-王力宏

2009-08-26T00:05:00.006+08:00

Teaching as a career

2009-08-21T00:53:00.003+08:00

Part of my job scope requires me to do school talks on Public Transport Safety and Graciousness.

Yes, school talks - in primary and secondary schools.

But I must say, I'm loving them to the max! Though it can be really tiring and quite nerve-wrecking at times, I can't deny that it was the grace of God that kept me going on.

Today, after my talk @ a secondary school in Woodlands, I was commended by a group of teachers, who were sitting at the back of the school, listening to my speech.

They went: "Hey Vincent. Erm, have you ever considered teaching before? I think you will make a very good teacher."

My first reaction - shock, yet thankful!

For a record, I thought my dream as a teacher has finally been realised! And I shared with them about the three consecutive years of failure in my application for teaching.

Thereafter, they said that the few of them can always write recommendation letters to MOE and I will be able to enter into teaching as a career!

BUT THE DUMBEST THING that I could ever do is to walk away without getting their contact details. So that in the event if I need a recommendation, they can help!

ARGGGHHH

What was I thinking?? Sigh.

Learning lesson: We don't pray for opportunities to come, but we pray that when OPPORTUNITIES COME, WE WILL BE READY!

But I wasn't. Urgh.

:(

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On a side note, the Northern Polar Bears are going on a holiday next June!!! HAHAHA.

I know it's still a long way to go. But going on a (future) holiday with a bunch of really good company kinda gets me excited!

All the way, Northern Polar Bears! :D

Pictures!

2009-08-16T17:31:00.006+08:00

Some overdue and current photos!

Reeve & Tangy.

Jiayi! My awesome CGL and friend.

Yaohui, Steven, Reeve - The ex-N299 peeps!

25 July 09 with fellow Usher Leaders!

CHC 20th Anniversary! W193 & N246! Special unique design by Heshen!

Jeremy! My 10-year brother in church! Take care in Thailand!

Movie outing with Group 1 Leaders! "Look out for the next (Group 1) change.

My ETI buddies!

FENDI !!!

SOT Grad - Thad & Timo-mo! Thank you for all your support in G1S4A! Congrats bros!

Promotion!

2009-08-11T23:20:00.001+08:00

I'm offered a promotion.

Just not now yet, but by the fact that I'm offered one, it just show how good God is!

I mean, it's only 2 months with SBS. And I'm offered a position that requires me to meet important people in the marketplace. How would all these be possible if it's not for God's grace?

I'm not perfect. Plus, I'm only new for 2 months!

For now, I will only know it at the end of August or mid Sept to know if it's going to take place.

Whether I'm getting promoted or not, I'm just thankful that the offer was made in the first place!

Praise God!

lose an argument and win a relationship

2009-08-10T03:25:00.005+08:00

I'm rather disturbed. Or should I say, disappointed.

The truth is, everyone isn't perfect. Period. But by responding to that imperfection, it does no justification.

Offenses always test the true character of a person.

Most of the time, it's the attitude and the reaction towards the offense that determines how other people will treat you in the future.

I don't know, but I must say, I've grown from someone who took offenses very personally, to the person I am today, who rather lose an argument and win a relationship.

I don't think the group is that bad. It takes two hands to clap.

When you expect someone to accept you for your imperfections and yet you don't do the same, I don't think it's really nice to criticise and be upset with the person.

I'm someone who protects unity! And I will not come easy on a person who spoils the unity of a group.

Yes I have my imperfections. But the least that each of us must have is the ability to just let go, and start afresh.

I find it a pity that it didn't go that way. And I will always wonder, do we have to go to that extent?

God, I want a thin heart, but a thick skin! A thin heart that does not build walls, but a thick skin to expect and ask for more!

Soft Rock - Part 1

2009-08-04T04:02:00.004+08:00

New Playlist - Soft Rock (Part 1)!

Soft Rock genre - not too loud, not too soft. Perfect melody for the soul. These are songs that expresses what my thoughts are currently.

Enjoy!

Soft Rock Playlist (Part 1)
1. Shawn Mullins - Everywhere I Go
2. U2 - One
3. The Corrs - So Young
4. Savage Garden - I Knew I Loved You
5. Gloria Estefan & N'Sync - Music of My Heart
6. Powderfinger - Drifting Further Away
7. N'Sync - This I Promise You
8. Gary Jules - Mad World
9. Chris Daughtry - What About Now?
10. David Cook - Come Back to Me
11. Coldplay - Yellow
12. Boyzone - Coming Home Now

Apart from the above playlist, there's another song that's really nice, but I couldn't find it on the current playlist.

It might sound quite familiar for some! It's a theme song from a very old time Drama titled "The Ride Home", back in 1997.

Rick Price - Baby Its You - artist

The human need

2009-08-04T02:15:00.002+08:00

Dealing with the effects of a problem will only prepare for bigger problems!

The effects will be solved when the root of it is solved.

I'm in an empty mood right now. In need to fill the human part of me.

20th Anniversary

2009-08-03T01:50:00.007+08:00

Time: 1.50 a.m.
Listening to: CHC's latest album, Writings on the Wall
Doing: Deep Thoughts!
Feeling: Unsatisfied!

I left the Indoor Stadium, crying and laughing, refreshed yet burdened. Many thoughts were going through my mind. Honestly, I can't help but to feel that I've left the place, unsatisfied!

Note: This post will sound a little random.

I can't help but to feel the same burden that Pastor has - that we gotta watch out that we do not become inward that we fail to neglect those who are hurting out there.

But before we even heal those who are hurting out there, I feel a stronger burden that the healing has to take place from within first!

For when there is hurt in the House, unity is broken! Walls start to build. Isolation starts to take place. People get neglected. The unloved goes on being unloved, and eventually, fades away.

No, we can't let this happen! IF ONLY we choose to PUT ASIDE all our differences and be open to all our mistakes, only to realise that we're all only humans.

THAT'S WHY the MORE we need the GRACE of God in our lives!

The more imperfect we feel, the more we need to realise that we're all on the journey of going on to perfection together!

If only you have this mindset - that you know and you know that this life that we have, is a sanctification process - our foundation will stay strong! Nothing will stumble you, and you will begin to accept everyone openly!

God, do a work today! As only you can!

ARGH! It's exploding inside of me! Gotta pen all these thoughts down this week!

The Calling

2009-07-26T23:58:00.005+08:00

I gotta blog this down before a new week starts!

Last duty with G1S4! Wish we had taken photos, but I guess, there were just too many things to do, too many people to meet.

I love meeting people! It always brings joy to my heart that I'm given a chance to bless and encourage whoever that I meet.

Pastor Tan preached a really awesome Word this weekend.

During his preaching, I was reminded of the dreams and visions that God gave me during a season in my life a few years back.

The visions were images of me, standing in front of a crowd, preaching to hundreds about the Father's love. The people in the crowd were in tears; they were so full of hunger and so in awe of His glory.

I saw the people that I was counselling - having their broken hearts mended, and moving on to greater things in life.

I saw myself leading those who are fatherless, or those who lacks the love of a Father.

And Pastor prayed for those who who wants to respond to full-time ministry. Well, I was ushering. Technically, I could have chosen not to do anything, but I felt the Holy Spirit nudging me to go ahead without even bothering about what people say.

Dr. Bernard says, while God is healing us, God wants to use us to heal others!

I've procrastinated enough! Time to respond to the higher call! Live as though I'm already in Full-Time Ministry!

1 Sam 22:1-2 - A verse that God gave me 5 years ago and I'm still holding on to it:
Vs 1 - David therefore departed from there and escaped to the cave of Adullam. So when his brothers and all his father’s house heard it, they went down there to him.

Vs 2 - And everyone who was in distress, everyone who was in debt, and everyone who was discontented gathered to him. So he became CAPTAIN over them. And there were about four hundred men with him.

People who are distress, in debt and discontented - these are the people that God loves. Not that He doesn't love Christians - but these are the people who are in need!

There's greater things to come; many others to love; many hurts to heal and many needs to meet!

Greater things are coming!

We don't pray for opportunities to come! But we pray that when opportunities come, we will be prepared!

OH YOU BRING
By Hillsong United

Oh You bring hope to the hopeless
And light to those in the darkness
And death to life
Now I’m alive

Oh You give peace to the restless
And joy to those who are broken
I see You now
In You I’m found

And You open the door for me
And You lay down your life to set me free
All that I am is all You are

Oh You feel those who are empty
And rescue those in the valley
And through it all
You calm my soul

Oh now You find me in my weakness
And heal the wounds in my heartache
I worship You
In Spirit and truth

And You open the door for me
And You lay down your life to set me free
All that I am is all You are

And You open my eyes to see
All the wonders in awe of Christ in me
Jesus You’re everything I need

All honour
All glory
All praise to You

Take care!

2009-07-25T01:12:00.005+08:00

Went to send off Jeremy today at the airport.

Last night we had a really really good catching up with one another. It feels as though we've known each other for a lifetime! Well, we only know each other for 10 years.

But come to think of it, how many friends do you really keep after 10 years? Good food for thought.

Goodbye Brother!

Am definitely gonna miss your presence for the next 6 months.

Gonna miss all the crapping, the sharing our dreams and deepest thoughts, the listening to one another's problems and most importantly, our lives!

It's funny how busy both of us can get, only to realise that when you're going away for that long that we treasure each other better.

Nonetheless, gonna see ya back in Singapore soon, STRONGER and WISER than before! 5 months should be fast (I think!)! Take care there!

Arms open wide

2009-07-24T23:52:00.000+08:00

ARMS OPEN WIDE
By Hillsong United. From "Across the Earth" album

Take my life I lay it down
At the Cross where I am found
All I have I give to You O God

Take my hands and make them clean
Keep my heart in purity
That I may walk in all You have for me

Woah-oh-oh, here I stand
Arms open wide
Woah-oh-oh, I am Yours
And You are my mine
Jesus

Take my moments and my days
Let each breath that I take
Be ever longing for You O God

Woah-oh-oh, here I stand
Arms open wide
Woah-oh-oh, I am Yours
And You are my mine

My whole life is Yours
I give to You
Surrendered to Your Name
And forever I will pray
Have Your way
Have Your way

Woah-oh-oh, here I stand
Arms open wide
Woah-oh-oh, I am Yours
And You are my mine

Music

2009-07-24T03:14:00.004+08:00

Music always minister to me best!

Through music, hearts are healed! Lives are touched! Words are expressed, and LOVE is no longer hidden!

If there's ever ANOTHER love language other than the 5 love languages, it would be the language of music!

More to be shared soon!

PS: This has NOTHING to do with my current playlist of songs! Hee. :)

Online Selling

2009-07-22T22:17:00.000+08:00

My friend is selling some really gorgeous ladies clothings online! Go check it out!

http://happy-rainbow-colours.blogspot.com/

songs!

2009-07-21T01:40:00.002+08:00

Never love dance music, but these two songs sure do rock!
=D

Plus an extra, something melodious and more mainstream! haha.

1. Craig David - Insomnia
2. Ne Yo - Closer
3. The Script - The Man That Can't Be Moved

working life

2009-07-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

Working in SBS has been really interesting so far.

I realised, I'm playing such an important role in the country's transportation system!

The things that I'm dealing with, the people that I'm working with - everything I do, every paragraphs I email, every word that I speak - carries the image of my company.

Got lots to learn! And I want to learn more!

God, thank you for the opportunities! =D

Bitter-sweetness?

2009-07-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

Till now, I can't find the right words to describe the feeling I'm in. So, it's "Bitter-sweetness" for now.

Just sent my Army Buddy off at the airport, who's going to Australia to study for a year.

And the news broke yesterday, that there was another friend of mine who's gonna go to China for exchange programme.

Why is everybody going??

Nonetheless, I'm happy! Happy that they're pursuing greater things in life! It always makes me wonder, is there a greater thing that I've not done when I know I could?

But having not to see them for half a year or more, is something that is gonna be of a challenge.

God, protect these friends of mine! :/

Drink

2009-07-07T16:20:00.003+08:00

DRINK
By Christian City Church

I'm leaving the desert
I'm tired of the heat
Over the dryness
I need to be free!

I see the ocean
I felt the breeze
I found in Jesus
There's a place I can be

A place of Your freedom
A place of I can rest
A place where the river flows
A place where Your mercy goes

A place without anguish
A place I can drink
A place I can drink
A place I can drink

I drink of the water
I drink of the wine
I drink of His presence
And leave the dryness behind

I come near to Jesus
To let Him touch me again
I drink of the Spirit
Let it never end

Beyond busyness

2009-07-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

Seems like history is repeating itself.

Jon Lee commented: Busy people changes the world!

But I don't wanna be too busy changing the world, that I miss out that very purpose of doing it - Friendships and Relationships!

Seems like history is repeating, and it just means, I need to overcome this barrier again, to have GREATER breakthroughs!

Lord, help me!

the people

2009-07-06T01:00:00.004+08:00

What a week!
Everyday, having to sleep only an average 4-5 hours a night.
And it's literally activities and meetings, day after day, after day!
And work is piling up! It's getting enormously huge!
With lots of administration to clear.
And so many people to talk to, to meet and to encourage.

But in the midst of all, I don't want to miss out the reliance on God's supernatural strength!

I'm feeling the "burning" effect of having too many things to do but too little time to complete.

I'm feeling the problem of not being focused and doing too many things at one time!

I'm feeling the effect of having to WORK TOO MUCH and neglect the true fellowship with people that God has set apart for us.

Most importantly, I'm at my ceiling now, having needed to plough through MORE THAN I'VE EVER HAD before and expand my capacity!

O man, transition periods doesn't sound that attractive after all.

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Putting that aside, I went to East Coast Park with a few really really good friends today!

It feels like all of us have just known one another, and just knew one another in church.

And and, my all-time awesome buddy, Jeremy, will be leaving for Thailand for his backpack & Exchange Programme on 24th July until 2010!

It's a bitter-sweet feeling! I'm really excited for him, because he's excelling really really well in the university! But at the same time, this means, we won't be seeing him for many months until next year!

Gonna miss sharing our secrets, and it's gonna be a challenge updating one another!

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And, there are so many friends that I wanna meet all the time, but so little time! God, let it not be this way in eternity!

But then again, eternity doesn't have time! URGH!

Life after ORD

2009-06-27T12:26:00.002+08:00

Time flies.

It's been 12 days since I've ORD-ed! And life is getting busier and busier.

Honestly, the feeling that I've ORD-ed has already taken a toll in me since April after my grandmother passed on.

So, in other words, I kinda took an unofficial "leave" and break for 2 months plus. Which is super duper fruitful!

We all need those kind of rests at times - not doing anything, thinking and planning ahead, knowing what we want to do in the future! Good reflection period of time.

Well, currently, I'm working for SBS Transit!

No, I aint no Bus Driver, I aint no MRT NEL Driver or Controller. Haha.

I'm doing Public Relations - dealing with the corporate image of SBS Transit and Sponsorship -- that is if you know what I'm saying.

Life has been 8 a.m. to 5.30 p.m. daily. And I'm getting the hang of it now. And it's been tight schedule after work!

More freed up next week! Any appointments? =D

Okie, gotta go prepare for Bible Study later! Ciao!

ORD LO!

2009-06-16T02:16:00.000+08:00

ORD LO!!!

Kings of Leon - Use Somebody

2009-06-11T00:31:00.003+08:00

USE SOMEBODY
By Kings of Leon

I've been roaming around
Always looking down
And all I see
Painted faces
Fill the places
I can't reach

You know that I could
Use somebody
You know that I could
Use somebody

Someone like you
And all you know
And how you speak
Countless lovers
Under cover
Of the street

You know that I could
Use somebody
You know that I could
Use somebody
Someone like you...

Off in the night
While you live it up
I'm off to sleep
Wagin' war
To shake the poet
And the beat

I hope it's gonna
Make you notice
I hope it's gonna
Make you notice

Someone like me,
Someone like me,
Someone like me, somebody.

Go and let it out...

Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody

I've been roamin' around
Always lookin' down at all I see

12 days to ORD!

2009-06-03T01:50:00.003+08:00

In a transition period once again.

Countdown:
12 days to ORD!
13 days to start Work!

WOOTS. GOD IS AWESOME!

In the last 1 week, I was given a total of 5 Offers to take up jobs from tuition to permanent positions. Isn't God amazing?

Indeed, we plan our ways, God direct our paths! :)

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But, why is everyone so busy to meet up??
I'm rotting while clearing my leave man. Gotta meet more people up to catch up! :)

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Looking forward to:
1. MALAYSIA TRIP (5 June to 8 June)
2. Class 5/3 Gathering at end June (hopefully it's on!)
3. ORD on 15th June.
4. Work @ Comfort Delgro @ 16th June!
5. Transition in Ministry!
6. Still thinking what else to include.

HOLIDAAAAAYYYYYY!!

Vincent is ...

2009-05-29T15:20:00.003+08:00

VINCENT IS . . .

Tired.
Empty.
Upset.
Disappointed.
Sleepy.
Moody.
Uncertain.
Lost.

Where am i heading? Let me be found again!

To be continued..

Spiderman

2009-05-21T16:43:00.001+08:00

"You are, what you choose! For great power comes great responsibility!" --Spiderman

Tues with Dr. Niko

2009-05-19T23:52:00.004+08:00

Tuesday's meeting with Dr. Niko is simply awesome!

Initially, I was feeling kinda dry, and I felt like my praying didn't seem to go anywhere. The praise and worship was rather old-school, but I could sense the anointing and the presence.

The preaching was initially, sleepy (Oops!), but the anointing was strong during the ministry!

Though I wasn't being prayed for, but I received a Rhema Word in my heart!

"I have never forsaken you, and will NEVER forsake you. Because I have not finished loving you and will never!". Somewhere along that line.

Just as when I lost faith in myself and in God, He showed me a clearer picture, a clear path that I need to go.

And I realise, I have not weeped in the presence of God for a very very long time! Today was a release - A touch; a fresh new touch!

I want that presence, that anointing wherever I go! But at what cost?

Everything!

The presence comes when you make that decision to give, Everything! Good or bad, everything!

Again, it voices down to choice! Do you or do you not want? It's all about a Yes and No! Yes-No is equivalent to a No-No!

Today, is it gonna be a yes, or a no?

I Will Rise - Chris Tomlin

2009-05-14T23:12:00.003+08:00

I hate it when the past comes and haunts you.

And then it tempts you to go back to the land of Egypt, a land of suffering, and just wish you hadn't moved on.

I mean, think about it. Sometimes, we just want to stay put at where we are, or go back to the past where sin seems pleasurable and a life of holiness seems impossible.

And you begin to wonder, what is life all about anyway?

There's so much hurt, so much pain. I feel so weak, so lifeless.

Those days, where I would just shut the room doors, and cry in the dark. For fear of being alone, for fear of being lonely.

"Where do I go from here? Where are you leading me to? I'm tired. It's torturing me!"

Chris Tomlin wrote a song that expresses the longing heart! It's gonna be my companion at least for the next few days.

Meanwhile, stick with Vincent! Stay with me to fight this battle together, okay?

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I WILL RISE
By Chris Tomlin

There's a peace I've come to know
Though my heart and flash may fail
There's an anchor for my soul
I can say, it is well

Jesus has overcome
And the grave is overwhelmed
The victory is won
He is risen from the dead

And I will rise
When He calls my Name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagle's wings
Before my God, fall on my knees
And Rise, I will rise

There's a day that's drawing near
When this darkness breaks to light
And the shadows disappear
And my faith shall be my eyes

And I will rise
When He calls my Name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise on eagle's wings
Before my God, fall on my knees
And Rise, I will rise

And I hear the voice of many angels sing
Worthy is the Lamb
And I hear the cry of every longing heart
Worthy is the Lamb
(Worthy is the Lamb)

Fruitful

2009-05-11T23:28:00.007+08:00

Say Cheese! Haha.

Okay, I maxed myself up the last three days.

I maxed myself up like TOTALLY!

Tired, yet fulfilling!

And I actually couldn't believe that I woke up LATE on Saturday for Duty!

Haha, to any of my ushers reading this, well, sadly to say, I'm only a human being, with mistakes made like this at times. Hehe.

Saturday's Duty was different! I love the atmosphere of love and having to hang out with my Ushers and my dear ones.

And we finally managed to take a team photo!! But there's only half of us. :(

And I wanna my CG to be this fun! The same kind of fun and loving atmosphere, where everyone put aside their differences, and just, enjoy! Purely enjoyment.

Go Team A! I'm really proud of you guys! To be your leader at least once in a lifetime, is God-sent! =DDD

SUNDAY!! Went for service in the morning; tuition in Woodlands in the afternoon; dinner @ Superdog Whitesands and then bowling @ E!Hub!

MONDAY!! Went to JB for the first time with my army khakis! haha, fun day, and I bought quite a few new things. Satisfied, but there's a hole in my pocket now.

Gotta really watch my spending.

PHOTOS WILL BE UP SOON!! When I pass back the camera to Cass. =D

CIAO!

When you're at your peak,
you will find yourself thankful for what you have.
When you're at your valley,
you will find yourself missing what you don't have.

Why do we need to go through valleys? :(

Just a thought.

2009-05-08T23:25:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, God will place you in a situation so that you'll learn invaluable lessons that no one can teach.

But most of time, He places you in those situations to trust Him MORE THAN you used to.

3rd day of fasting

2009-05-07T01:30:00.000+08:00

It's my third day of fasting for the week.

Due to some camp duties, my level of praying & Bible Reading haven't been matching up to the level of fasting that I am in.

URGH.

I need to plough more into the supernatural.

I need to go deeper.

But the thoughts of the people's lives just keep flooding my mind.

And dreams that seem so real, as though it's gonna happen. DEJA-VU if you wanna put it.

LORD, ENLARGE MY CAPACITY!! LENGTHEN MY TENTS AND MY COURTS!!

Fasting and praying births breakthroughs!

2009-05-03T02:09:00.006+08:00

What an amazing day!

Attended Ban Chuan and Madeline's wedding matrimony. I must say, I'm always in a lovey dovey mode whenever I attend weddings.

And I would start imagining how my wedding will be like, who I will invite, who's gonna be my Best Man/Best Men etc etc. Haha

Pastor Ming was funny! He was the one who led the ceremony. And I must say, his jokes about marriage may be hilarious, but it's so realistic! I love weddings!

Managed to catch up with some friends also. Amazing!

Off to church I went! Gave Nicholas BS, supposed to give Junquan, but I was running out of time! Urgh.

Spoke to one of my ushers which was rather fruitful! (Bro, Jiayou man, if u're reading this! I'm waiting for you to come back to fulfill your DESTINY!)

Service with Ps. Stephan Munsey was awesome! Something different, and the drama he acted was simply amazing! Beyond the norm, but I must say, the presence of God is strong!

And then off to WOLVERINE movie with my CG and the friends. Amazing fellowship! Though we didn't get to talk much. But there was something different in the atmosphere!

I'm loving it!

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I didn't know FASTING and PRAYING would have such amazing results!

This just show one thing: MY GOD IS AN AMAZING GOD! He rewards the faithful, and gives the fruits to those who sow.

Note: Faithful, God rewards when there's faithfulness: Exceedingly and abundantly!

I'm believing for MORE!

I'm gonna fast for the whole of next week: 12 hours daily! I'm not satisfied!

And I pray I never will!

My God is an awesome God! And He fights for the one who fights!

Gonna fight the good fight of faith!

Fasting and Praying

2009-04-28T17:56:00.004+08:00

Okay, some recent updates. Alot has happened lately.

Well, not exactly THAT alot, but more of the lives of my friends and loved ones.

I'm feeling really burdened.

BUT I'm NOT giving in to the devil. I'M NOT GIVING UP!

I'm gonna fight the fight of faith. I'm not gonna let the devil take control.

I'm not fighting for his defeat.

HE IS ALREADY DEFEATED!

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I'm fasting from Monday to Thursday this entire week (maybe even Friday).

I will be the armourbearer, the fighter! I'll do whatever it takes to see God's Kingdom come to pass, to see the breakthroughs my people will have!

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Dear friend, if you're reading this entry: I'm fasting for you! WE'RE fasting for you! That's how much you meant to the team! U mean so much to us that we're willing to do anything, just for you!

To You my Friend(s)!

2009-04-26T23:17:00.006+08:00

I'm not sure if you will ever read this.

But when you're down, we're down too!
And we're here for you whenever you need us.
Any time!

Signing off with lots of love.

My Ex-Class

2009-04-24T12:54:00.006+08:00

Hahaha! I've found my ex-class's blog!
They are so adorable and funny.
Look at the way they blog! And they have their own blogs too.
My, look at how they've grown.
The fruits and satisfaction of a teacher! :)

http://sixthree08.blogspot.com

God, if it's Your will, let my Uni/NIE Application get through! Let Your Will be done, I plead!

Take care Henry!

2009-04-23T23:59:00.002+08:00

Goodbye Henry! Take care in Thailand.

I don't think you'll get to see this, but we're really really gonna miss you big time! See you on 17th May again!

:(

The society.

2009-04-23T03:15:00.001+08:00

Imagine a life you're living - Purposeless!

Delinquents, youths. Bounded and sucked into the society, into this Rat Race.

They grew up, wanting their parents' attention. They want the parents to see THEM beyond just their grades.

For fearing they couldn't do well, and for wanting to get their parents' approval, they do foolish things.

They fight. They steal. They drink and smoke, got into glue sniffing.

They change girlfriends like they're changing their clothes, wasting their life away.

Where the root of it all, is just to gain their parent's attention and approval, and accept them as who they are and not their grades!

And all they ever wonder about life - nothing!

Purposeless. Emptiness. Directionless.

It's all vanity! It's all futile!

Urgh, I'm overwhelmed! Especially after watching Cold Case.

HCGL Class

2009-04-22T23:40:00.003+08:00

Pastor Bobby mentioned something that really struck my mind:

If you study the 4 Gospels, you will realise that it didn't mention what kind of clothes Jesus wore, what kind of bag Jesus carry, or whether Jesus has ever won the Best Carpenter Award (if we put it in modern terms).

Conclusion: Jesus sees people, men sees things!

Men sees the type of cars, the clothes the person wear, the hairstyle the person has, the figure the girl has, the type of house you stay in.

But Jesus didn't. He sees the people, not the things they wear or do.

Food for thought. :)

New Playlist

2009-04-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

New playlist! Haha, again, random and a mix.
Enjoy!

sunday blues

2009-04-19T17:11:00.003+08:00

I'm on duty now! So, here i am. Squeezing in the time to really sit down and sort out a little bit of my thoughts.

And so, I went swimming on Friday. Went to try out the JW Swimming pool and the slide. Fun fun fun! And i got a slight burn again. This time round it looks more like a tan rather than a burn.

Saturday, went for tuition in the morning, svc and then it was bowling with reeve jiarong and henry! And then it was soccer match at SAFRA Mount Faber.

I'm surprised that I actually agreed to stay on to watch the match, which I usually don't! But it was Chelsea who conquered Arsenal! Woohoo. BLUE ROCKS!

And and, Henry said something that really makes my day. I felt really supported by his words.

Talking about Henry, I remembered 4 years ago, it was CNY and we were playing pool in his estate, which so happen that my friends stay in the same area. He was waiting for his O Levels Results then.

A week later, I invited him to church, received Christ and here he is today! Still faithfully coming and serving God.

Amazed! Thank you Henry for your never-ending support. :)

needs and wants

2009-04-14T04:00:00.001+08:00

I need LIFE in my soul!

I need a personal revival, in the midst of all the CG Revival that's taking place!

I need to let go of what's happening, put it aside, and then MOVE ON to the next phase, the next level!

The higher you climb, the bigger the fall.

I don't want to fall hard. I only wanna fall in Your arms!

I don't wanna do everything on my own strength. It beats the purpose of bringing new souls, new life in the first place if I just want to do everything myself.

I need a new direction! A direction that's not mine, but God's! Purely for Him.

Notice all the "needs" that I have. But yet, that sacrifice and that first step - is just so tough.

Now I'm experiencing FULLY what it means that the Spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak! URGH.

I WANT a breakthrough!
I WANT a brand new vision from God!
I WANT to see a fresh, new anointing in my life.
I WANT to love God the best I can, like never before. There's got to be something more!
I WANT to lead more people to experience His everlasting love.

I DON'T need anything. Cause You're ALL that I need.

I only need You.

Just, You!

post-easter

2009-04-13T22:40:00.001+08:00

tired. sick. flu. headache. pain.

let me rant it out

2009-04-06T03:17:00.000+08:00

It's been a roller coaster ride.

Alot of things were going through my mind yesterday. I felt abandoned, I felt loss. It felt like, I was back to Square 1 - to where I was before I met Christ.

Those dark days; those days where no one seemed to understand, where no one seems to be there hearing my scream for help!

That feeling is horrendous! I couldn't find anyone who is willing to be there physically.

I don't want to be selfish, but then again, what could be more important than being there for a friend who's in need?

goodbye granny

2009-04-04T11:46:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm glad she's moved on.

When I see her on Friday with the Life-Supporting Machine, it was quite a painful sight I must say. She was struggling to breathe, as though she was waiting for someone to visit her for the last time.

I was struggling real badly on the inside on Friday, if I should go down to visit her.

I mean, I'm not very close with my dad's side of relatives and I was thinking to myself: Wouldn't it be weird if I visit her, considering that when she was still active, I haven't been visiting her?

Argh. So many struggles, but I was glad I made the right decision to do so.

Goodbye granny. I'll see you in Heaven! You will be in your youngest, youthful look ever in Heaven.

April Fool's 2009

2009-04-01T11:15:00.001+08:00

HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL DAY!

And I got tricked really badly by Julian Kuah Shao Qian and Nicholas Wong Teck Chiang!

Goodness, couldn't believe they would play such a trick on me! For once, I really got a shock of my life.

Pls pls don't do it again, if the both of you are reading this. HAHAHAHA!

David Cook - Come Back to Me

2009-03-31T01:10:00.000+08:00

New set of playlist!

O man, David Cook's latest song, Come Back to Me, is simply awesome!

Anyone has the track??

Enjoy!

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COME BACK TO ME
David Cook

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you

You say you're leavin
As you look away
I know theres really nothin left to say
Just know i'm here
Whenever you need me
I'll wait for you

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

Take your time i wont go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

Oh and i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

I can't get close if your not there
I can't get inside if theres no soul to bear
I can't fix you i can't save you
Its something you have to do

So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
Come back to me
So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

And i hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you come back to me

When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me
When you find you come back to me

91-Bravo

2009-03-22T19:30:00.003+08:00

I must say, I am VERY VERY thankful for all the opportunities that God has given to me.

I'm thankful for the friends and fellow-leaders that God has placed in my life, to mould and change me to where I am today.

I'm thankful for the leaders that God has given to me, to know my weakness and help me to my next level. Most importantly, for believing in me and giving me a chance to do more!

My previous duty as a 91-Bravo was a good duty, but it wouldn't be the case if it is not for the help of my fellow leaders in the ministry.

I'm blessed.

Really blessed. :)

MRT Accident!

2009-03-12T02:04:00.005+08:00

Okay, it's finally over! But I haven't gotten any much break the last few days with most of the clearing up.

And more "arrows" to come in the next few weeks. O man, it's 95 more days to ORD and got so much work!

I so wanna hand over all that I'm doing to the Understudies. But they're all being deployed! God, help!!!

The last 3 weeks was back to back preparation for 2 consecutive, last minute events that took place in camp.

Can't mention what event, but I must say, the team really pull through the rehearsals and performance, despite the short time frame given.

But I'm still feeling the aftermath of the event - sleepy and tired! I need a break!

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Today was the first day of Home CGL Leadership Class.
Pastor Bobby has definitely challenged my mentality about Home Cell Group.

And God gave me some ideas on how my future CG should be like.
Shall share more in time to come!

Managed to catch up with Cassandra (Loh) after the BS today.
Really glad that we finally had a chance to catch up with one another after the BS.
Seeing her grow from a baby Christian to where she is now, really reminds me on how faithful our God is, if only one CHOOSES to stay faithful with Him.

And while on the way home, our train got stuck at AMK Station. Apparently the Staff told us that someone jumped off at YCK MRT Station. Haha.

It's First hand information! So, being kiasu singaporeans, we immediately took out our HP and SMS our friends to tell them about it. HAHAHA!

Oh, and I told Xiang Rong (my member) about it. This was his reply:

XR says (1:36 AM):
waaa
XR says (1:37 AM):
long time no ppl jump down at mrt liao
XR says (1:37 AM):
=X
HAHAHAA!

Oh and Cass (Loh), if you're reading this, I fully agree with you.
Cos it's just not the season yet! :)

Arrow from camp!

2009-03-03T14:56:00.001+08:00

I'D JUST GOT SHOT WITH A BIG ARROW

AND IN SUCH A SHORT NOTICE!!!!

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Pig Slaughtering

2009-03-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

OMG! The entire process of pig slaughter for human consumption, takes 3 DAYS!

Just finished watching Unexpected Access on Channel 5.

It's quite an interesting show I must say. And today's episode was on Pigs Slaughtering.

After watching the show, I kinda felt more appreciative about food and not waste them unnecessarily, because all the human effort and hard work has been put in to provide food for mankind.

Uni Application

2009-02-25T22:00:00.003+08:00

Finally settled my Uni Application. Can't wait for it man.

God, if it's Your will for my life, let it be done! If it isn't, speak to me!

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And I can't believe that I just did something that I wouldn't even believe I would do it while talking on the phone.

But I did just that. Oh gosh. This better be a secret between us for now.

Hahahaha!

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I've got a really big project at hand in camp. I hope it turns out well.

Sometimes it's just so weird. They give us a task to complete with high expectations that the mission is to be completed. But yet they don't supply the necessary resources and equipment to do so.

How contradicting. =/

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Nonetheless, God is good all the time and all the time God is good!

O and lastly, my dear Elijah got approached by a group of 20 gangsters on Monday. Coincidentally, his parents were on overseas trip for 3 days and they were really worried for him.

As such, they approached my two best ushers for help to "babysit" him these two days. Haha.

But I'm glad things turn out great!

And Elijah's dogs are HUGEEEE and SCARY!

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Okie dokie! Heading back to camp! Busy Busy like a bumble beeee.

Ego

2009-02-22T21:38:00.002+08:00

EGO.

It's only three letters, but it's the biggest downfall of almost all men.

But you can't help it at times. Because it's the human nature in us.

When Pastor Tan shared his testimony yesterday, I realised that everyone can unknowingly put up a wall and say things that might hurt others unknowingly.

And after chatting with one of my ushers just now, I realised that the biggest hurdle of every MAN, is not the people around them.

It's the ego that's within them.

Hugs Articles

2009-02-20T16:18:00.002+08:00

Found an interesting article while reading Liwei's blog.

Haha, Liwei, dun mind me posting it here! =)

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HUGS
This is quite interesting:

HOW TO HUG
Hugging may sound like the simplest thing on earth, but it will help to keep a few things in mind. Non-hugs are no good. In his book Caring, Feeling, Touching, Dr Sidney Simon describes five non-hugs:
1. The A-frame hug, in which nothing but the huggers' heads touch.
2. The half-hug, where the huggers' upper bodies touch—while the other half twists away.
3. The chest-to-chest burp, in which the huggers pat each other on the back, defusing the physical contact by treating each other like infants being burped.
4. The wallet-rub, in which two people stand side-by-side and touch hips.
5. The jock-twirl, in which the hugger, who is stronger or bigger, lifts the other person off the ground and twirls him.

The real thing (FOR COUPLES LARH!!), the full body hug, touches all the bases.

Dr Simon describes it like this: "The two people coming together take time to really look at each other. There is no evasion or ignoring that they are about to hug... You try as hard as you can to personalize and customize each hug you give... With a full body hug there is a sense of complete giving and fearless. Communication, one uncomplicated by words.

Various experiments have shown that touch can:
- make us feel better about ourselves and our surroundings
- have a positive effect in a child's development and IQ
- cause measurable physiological changes in the touchers and the touched

The Power of Hugging
Hugging accomplishes many things that you may never have thought of. It ...
- feels good
- dispels loneliness
- overcomes fear
- opens doors to feelings
- builds self-esteem (WOW, SHE/he actually wants to hug me!)
- fosters altruism- slows down aging!!! (huggers stay young longer)
- helps curb appetite!!! (we eat less when we are nourished by hugs and when our arms are busy wrapped around others) - Good idea for those who want to maintain weight!!!

More Good Things from Hugging
- eases tension
- fights insomnia
- keeps arms and shoulder muscles in condition
- provides stretching exercise if you are short
- provides stooping exercise if you are tall
- offers a wholesome alternative to promiscuity
- offers a healthy, safe alternative to alcohol and other drug abuse (better hugs than drugs!)
- affirms physical being- is democratic (anyone is eligible for a hug)

Even More Benefits from Hugging
- is ecologically sound (it does not upset the environment)
- is energy-efficient (saves heat)
- is portable
- requires no special equipment
- demands no special setting (a fine place for a hug is any place from a doorstep to an executive conference room ... from a church parlor to a football field)
- makes happy days happier- imparts feelings of belonging
- fills up empty places in our lives
- keeps on working to dispense benefits even after the hug is released

Some facts about Hugs:
Scientific Research Has Shown the Following:
Every human being needs:
4 hugs per day merely to survive.
8 hugs per day to maintain oneself at a strong emotional level.
12 hugs per day to grow and become a better person.

For those who aren't always comfortable with the traditional hug, you should at least try one of the other following forms of Hugs: A kind word. A touch. A loving smile. A "Thank you!" A "Forgive me." A "Can I help you?" A "I'm Sorry."

And anything else you can do to make a person feel good about him or herself.

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Interesting article.

Haha, I know this might sound a little gay, but I'm somebody who really appreciates hugs alot, especially coming from a fatherless background. From anyone, at any time of the day! =)

Go hug someone today!

In fact, have you done something to make someone feel good today?

busy in camp

2009-02-18T00:43:00.001+08:00

Camp life is really getting busier as the days of ord gets nearer. There seems to be so much work to complete, so many demands n requests from everybody!

And what i really dread the most? Army politics!

Whenever these things happen, it kinda makes me feel like i'm fighting the battle alone. And fear starts to grip my soul that affects my sense of direction.

But i'm trusting in God in every situation i face. As the day passes, i realised i need the wisdom n grace of God, EVERY single day of my life.

God, i need You! Come fill and shape this empty heart of mine!

new add

2009-02-16T16:03:00.002+08:00

Okay, a brand new link.

The reason?

I wanna blog without having some unknown people knowing what I blog about.

Many times I wanna blog my feelings here, but knowing that this particular person reads, I would think twice on expressing my opinions here.

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Okay, so I've applied for my NTU application for NIE Degree Course. Now all I gotta do is to pray that I will get through.

I want to be a teacher! It has always been my passion to teach and educate. It takes alot of energy and patience to really teach, but I don't mind.

It's not going to be easy, but I know it's where God called me to be. And I wanna fulfill that calling.

By faith, it shall happen! =)

roller coaster

2009-02-08T20:49:00.002+08:00

Vincent is on a real big roller coaster ride of his life!

And he just doesn't know why it's happening in the first place.

Pls don't take my sunshine away

2009-02-05T23:59:00.004+08:00

Was watching Cold Case Season 4 (Ep 16). And this song caught my attention!

You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
You make me happy
When skies are grey
You never know, dear
How much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

Touched.

Human Nature

2009-01-30T23:59:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, it's really more than trying to REACT to the mistake that one makes.

The one AND only requirement that God has is that WILLINGNESS to avail, to serve when the need arises. More than just wanting to "bu chang" because of a mistake.

Yes, it's a good attitude. But at the end of the day, is it going to work?

Sometimes, the harsh needs to kick in at times before things can get down and be addressed!

Why must humans be this stubborn??

PS: Not pointing to anyone! It's just a general comment.

By Faith!

2009-01-29T20:42:00.003+08:00

We will walk through the fire and not be burned!

We will walk through the waters and not be drowned!

We will walk through the deserts and not faint!

Gong Xi Fa Cai NOT

2009-01-25T11:24:00.002+08:00

I'm in a "Don't-Know-What-to-blog" and a "Don't-feel-like-blogging" mode now.

Till then, Happy New Year! Gong Xi Fa Cai!

O, the moment if you drop by here and see this message, it means you owe me an ANG POW! =D

有你在身旁--無印良品

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sprained wrist

2009-01-05T21:15:00.002+08:00

Injured my wrist while cycling along East Coast Park on Friday.

I SO-WANNA sit down and pen down my thoughts for 2008 and 2009. But it just seem to be so difficult to do so. And I wonder why.

Think it's gonna be a Kit-Kat Season until CNY is over. Haha.

Painful Wrist! Ouch.

Brand New 2009!

2009-01-03T14:04:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Okay, really sorry for the lack of updates the last 2 weeks. Have been really busy busy busy with lots of things.

Christmas services, tawning in my house for TWO-LONG-SLEEPLESS consecutive nights with some crazy people, countdown, meet-ups, suppers, movies and many many others!

Updates in a short while, though I realised that the number of hits in this blog has dropped tremendously! Haha.

But who cares? I'm gonna update it soon. If my wrist permits though. Urgh!

HAPPY NEW YEAR, PULL YOUR EAR, EVERYONE! =D

N246

2008-12-23T02:34:00.003+08:00

REVIVAL!

It's coming! And the time is NOW!

Currently we have 23 friends! This is a super breakthrough for N246!

It's time! Time to EXPAND our capcities! Lengthen our courts! All these friends that are confirmed, WILL come no matter what.

And by faith we declare all these souls! They all belong to Him! Let the process begin! Let it be done!

I'm all excited for it! The whole Heavens are sooo gonna rejoice!

Merry Christmas

2008-12-22T13:11:00.003+08:00

It's Christmas season!

And I so wanna get into the Christmas mood. And so, here's a Christmas song to wish everybody a ..

MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

=D

HAVE A MERRY LITTLE CHRISTMAS
By Amy Grant

Have yourself a Merry little Christmas
Let your heart be light
From now on our troubles will be out of sight

Have yourself a Merry little Christmas
Make the yuletide gay
From now on our troubles will be miles away

Once again as in olden days
Happy golden days of yore
Faithful friends who are dear to us will be near to us once more
Through the years we all will be together
If the fates allow
Hanging a shining star upon the highest bough
And have yourself a Merry little Christmas now

Rants Rants & more Rants

2008-12-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

This season is the season where almost all NSFs will clear their leave. By right, I'm supposed to! But, due to some work in camp, I could only clear it on a few days or so.

I cleared 3 days of leave until Wed, and then went back to camp for COS Duty on Thurs till today.

Sigh, the 3 days of leave didn't felt like it was leave at all. I really wanna go on a holiday! Somewhere paradise, where there's a beach! Soaking under the sun all day long, and doing some sea sports like canoeing, boat-skiing etc.

Diving sounds like a good idea too! I want I want!

But all these seem so far away! No money, no sponsorship, bound by NS Life; Sigh. Whatever.

At least I got a chance to watch "Bolt". Funny show! I love the way the digitals are being played on the screen. It looks so realistic! Worth watching the show. =D

25 more weeks to ORD! I'm counting down!! Lord, let the time pass quickly!

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I think, I'm gonna work after I ORD for a period of time. I wanna experience working life for maybe a year or two, before furthering my studies. Or maybe do part-time at the same time.

But I'm gonna try applying for NIE for the Degree Programme one more time next year! Just one last try! If it's still unsuccessful, I'll just go look for a job!

Ok. I dunno wat else to blog. Off to game!

Practicality vs Satisfaction

2008-12-17T23:15:00.000+08:00

The struggle between practicality & satisfaction.

Practicality - you buy something because it's cheap, worth it and meets almost every criteria you have to make you look good.

Satisfaction - you buy something NO MATTER how expensive it is, just to satisfy your good-image-looking-desire with new things that make you look good.

My oh my, what a fine difference it is! I am really very tempted to buy new shirts since it's Christmas, but the practicality part kills.

If u understand the "chim-ness" behind this post, I really salute you.

Urgh!

HP Charger

2008-12-13T03:24:00.001+08:00

Isn't it amazing to have someone you know (other than your neighbours), whom you think you can trust, to have something that you need, at that specific time and hour?

I left my one and only Nokia Charger in camp (the one with the thin pinhole), and my phone was getting low batt.

I searched through my MSN contacts to see if there's someone I know and still in contact with, that might have the same Nokia Charger to charge my HP for 1 night.

Thank God for Liying! haha.

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It's 183 more days to ORD!

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Happy 21st Birthday to TIMO-MO!!!
And Happy Belated 21st birthdays to: Shijia, Thaddeus, Pamela & Yap Pow Wee!
May all your 21st bird-day wishes come true!

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It's 3.35 a.m. now. Got to go and catch some sleep. Camp is a real bore! Got some real dump training ~~tomorrow~~later. But what to do?

26 MORE WEEKS TO ORD!!

It's Finally December!

2008-12-09T01:36:00.000+08:00

So, we've entered into December! The final lap before 2008 closes its chapter for the opening ceremony of 2009.

And, I wanna end it with a BIG BANG! Suuupppeeeer Duuupppeerrr Big bang! A few more mountains to conquer; a few more valleys to overcome!

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Ok, I really don't know what else to blog! Someone give me some suggestions? haha.

On a hiatus

2008-11-28T20:08:00.000+08:00

Okays, finally! I can have the time to really sit down and pen my thoughts.

Random thoughts.

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The last 1.5 months was the busiest days ever in my NS life. So many demands to meet, expectations to rise up to.

Finally, I could be on a hiatus before the new soldiers come into my unit on 22nd Dec. Which means, it would be busy busy and BUSY again!

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Meeting so many people expectations can be really tiring and draining!

I mean, I am who I am! I can't change myself just to be who you want me to be. I am an imperfect being, just like everybody else.

But I'm called to be perfected! Don't live for people's expectations!

Live for God's expectation in your life!

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What exactly are we asking for, when we ask God to strengthen our hearts? Or when we declare that God is the strength of our hearts?

Whenever we ask God to strengthen your heart, we are asking God to give us the capacity to learn how to meet His expectations and NOT what others expect you to be.

Asking God to strengthen your heart also means knowing how to be SECURE in who you are in God and who God is.

Knowing that your sins HAVE been paid for! Knowing that the enemy HAS ALREADY defeated. Knowing that you are being redeemed and washed clean so that your life can move on to perfection level, just like Jesus!

It's more than the head knowledge. It's all about that revelation, that experience that secures you and strengthen your heart during times of crisis!

And after being a Christian for 10 years, I still do struggle with this at times.

There will always be times when I will wonder to myself: Who am I that God chose me? I've got so many flaws: temperamental problems, laziness, loves to sleep, doesn't really like to talk to people, makes so many mistakes all the time etc.

Who are you in God, today?

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And one more good news:
I have 28 more weeks to ORD!

Watever..

2008-10-24T10:32:00.000+08:00

So many occasions I wanna blog, but every time I get to the computer, I forgot what I wanted to type.

In the midst of some changes again. Hopefully I'll settle in real soon.

Shall continue updating again sometime soon. Meanwhile, enjoy this song by Michael Buble. =)

True - Ryan Cabrera

2008-10-05T17:01:00.001+08:00

TRUE
By Ryan Cabrera

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

Rantsssss....

2008-09-18T23:59:00.003+08:00

To be honest, I'm a little disappointed in myself.

Seeing all the SOT graduation pictures that my friends posted, really makes me feel that I'm such a lousy friend somehow.

I can still remember on the SOT graduation Saturday, I had to booked in back to camp before 8.30 p.m. because of the AHM on the next day.

Why oh why does it have to take place then?

When I see all the pictures that my friends took during the graduation, how I really wished that I was there for them, on one of the most important days of their lives. Why does it have to turn out this way?

Sometimes, I just feel like I've neglected the most important people in my life! Plus, I wonder. Am I still part of theirs since I entered NS?

As I did some looking back, I realised, SO SO SO many things has changed! Things happening in my family, things going on in my friends' lives, and most importantly, who exactly are my true friends now? Friends who runs the same race together, carrying the same vision and making things happen?

I've come to a point where I can't give anymore. I'm always doing my best to help the people under me, to serve the best I can.

I've done my best to have them part of my life and me in their lives.

Oh Wait. Am I really part of their lives??
Sigh.

Ivy, Jia Hong, Samantha

2008-09-15T11:54:00.004+08:00

A few things have been happening to the friends around me.

IVY

For those of you who know Ivy, please please please pray for her.

She was hospitalised last Friday evening due to a pain in her stomach. What was initially thought to be appendicitis, turned out to be a cist measuring ~~4.6mm~~ 5 cm in her ovary.

She will be having her operation ~~today in the afternoon~~ sometime soon to remove the cist.

Please pray that the cist will be gone! And that, complete healing will take place. Most importantly, pray that the peace of God will be upon her!

IVY, this song is dedicated for you. Jiayou!

JIAHONG

For those who know Jia Hong, he has just finished his operation. Pray that his back will be completely healed!

Pray that he will be able to play soccer normally again, without feeling any more pain in the back.

SAMANTHA
Samantha's grandaunt has just passed away. Please pray for her family.

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All these things happen over the last weekend.
Satan is really up to no good.
But I proclaim that Jesus HAS already won the victory!
That no weapon formed against them shall prosper!

Secondhand Serenade

2008-09-03T14:04:00.000+08:00

By far, this band rocks! It gives you a different feel, unlike other bands.

Here's one of the songs uploaded for your soothing ears!

Enjoy!

And I'm longing, for words to describe how I'm feeling
I'm feeling inspired
My world just flip turned upside down
It turns around, say what's that sound
It's my heart beat, it's getting much louder
My heart beat, is stronger than ever
I'm feeling alive, I'm feeling alive

Oil prices plunge!

2008-09-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

Oil prices are plunging! Yay! Haha.

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20080903/tts-commodities-energy-oil-price-c1b2fc3.html

What was initially feared, will not take place!

Okay, that is really so random. Firstly, I don't drive. Secondly, oil prices only affect my electricity & transportation expenses. So, what's there to worry?

Haha.

Hurricane Gustav

2008-08-31T11:57:00.000+08:00

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20080831/twl-caribbean-weather-storm-4bdc673.html

Oh gosh. Oil prices may increase again.